I got a happiness planner today in the mail from anthropology. My mom and I spent an hour and a half talking out loud to each other about what makes us “happy” and what doesn’t. We went back and forth over how to rank the adjectives to describe our strengths and weaknesses. Debating whether my emotional character should be ranked second or third on my strengths, when sometimes I think of it as a weakness.
I watched a movie called “the Big Sick” today after all the happiness shenanigans. It was about a Pakistani man that fell in love with an American girl whom his family forbid him to marry. I watched him suffer immensely as the love he felt for this woman cloud his vision of everything around him. But the happiness he felt with her was so pure, raw, chaotic even…it’s like the bliss you feel when you’re in love doesn’t compare to the natural status quo state of human existence.
I met this guy a few days ago. We’ve been texting on and off for the past month or so, but we’ve just really started to get to know each other. I definitely don’t love him. I don’t even know if he has siblings or not. But damn does he seem perfect. It’s like Nicholas sparks answered my prayers and dropped one of his drool-worthy, charming characters right in front of me. Like scary perfect. The kind of perfect that makes you analyze every character you type into the text box, re-read the text four times, add a comma here, change up the sentence syntax, kind of perfect. I’m so afraid I’m going to say the wrong thing and he’ll disappear from thin air. Here I am thinking I’m a confident, independent woman, when the recesses of my mind still hold onto a irrational fear of people walking out of my life for absolutely no apparent reason.
Yes, there’s still so much more to find out about this man, but I’m so excited for what lies ahead. He loves his family, he’s passionate about flying helicopters, he’s incredibly, jaw-droppingly handsome, he makes my heart flutter and conversations (in person) make it seem like we’ve been best friends since we were six. He’s confident. Hell, I can’t remember the last time I’ve been on a date with someone who was truly sure of himself. This man has ambitions to become a teacher in an urban area where he can truly make a difference. I’m curious to see what the catch is, because there is always a catch. I’m just hoping it’s one that I could live with.
Details to come…